Life, This week.

I have like no life right now..
I need something..exciting and fun to do.

This week..has been weird.
So many different things being thrown my way, this wasnt what i wanted. I didnt want bad stuff and shit thrown in my life, i just wanted excitement.

Anyway, warped is this wed. Im pretty excited, this will be my 3rd time. :)
I loooveee warped! I love concerts.
Also we most likely get to drive ourselfs, so we can stay untill it closes if we want.

I just want it to be here already. <3

Emma

Pickin up my little baby today.
She broke her foot and had to get surgery on it.
I miss her, and i hope everything will go ok.
I love you Emma louise.

Given up.

I have my flaws, I make my mistakes and I'm not a perfect...or easy person to deal with.
I am stubborn, and I hold an angry argument. I'm protective and moderately jealous as well.
But when I love...I give it all I have, I put my heart and soul into it and I don't let anyone tell me different, I always take care of the one I love no matter what.


I feel a sense of defeat...like I have no more left, I'm finally done.
I've been wondering when this day would come, and when I would finally just...give up, and well I have....I have given up

Different levels of the devils company

This world, my calling.

Its been awhile..
Things..are a little better..
I'm still struggling with alot of stuff.
I hate what this world has become..
I feel..i dont even belong in it.
Like how come i was put on this earth?
Whats my life purpose?
All i do is sit here..and watch the world fly by..Is there a reason im here?
Is there a reason i have to watch the destruction of this world? am i ment to do something?
So many questions..with no answers.
I would like to find my calling.
Id like it to be great. Something i can do to make this world better, or make people happy.

Theres something out there, just for me.
I just have to find it.

So far

Its been awhile..
Lots of things have happened.
Ryan and I broke up.
Im hanging out with friends more.
Im getting help for my depression.
Im actually having a goodtime with my friends.

I'll update more later. :) <3

Today. :)

Had the most amazing day with Ryan and my family at the zoo. :)

I lovie you, Ryan Tew.