Life, This week.

I have like no life right now..
I need something..exciting and fun to do.

This week..has been weird.
So many different things being thrown my way, this wasnt what i wanted. I didnt want bad stuff and shit thrown in my life, i just wanted excitement.

Anyway, warped is this wed. Im pretty excited, this will be my 3rd time. :)
I loooveee warped! I love concerts.
Also we most likely get to drive ourselfs, so we can stay untill it closes if we want.

I just want it to be here already. <3

Emma

Pickin up my little baby today.
She broke her foot and had to get surgery on it.
I miss her, and i hope everything will go ok.
I love you Emma louise.

Given up.

I have my flaws, I make my mistakes and I'm not a perfect...or easy person to deal with.
I am stubborn, and I hold an angry argument. I'm protective and moderately jealous as well.
But when I love...I give it all I have, I put my heart and soul into it and I don't let anyone tell me different, I always take care of the one I love no matter what.


I feel a sense of defeat...like I have no more left, I'm finally done.
I've been wondering when this day would come, and when I would finally just...give up, and well I have....I have given up

Different levels of the devils company

This world, my calling.

Its been awhile..
Things..are a little better..
I'm still struggling with alot of stuff.
I hate what this world has become..
I feel..i dont even belong in it.
Like how come i was put on this earth?
Whats my life purpose?
All i do is sit here..and watch the world fly by..Is there a reason im here?
Is there a reason i have to watch the destruction of this world? am i ment to do something?
So many questions..with no answers.
I would like to find my calling.
Id like it to be great. Something i can do to make this world better, or make people happy.

Theres something out there, just for me.
I just have to find it.

So far

Its been awhile..
Lots of things have happened.
Ryan and I broke up.
Im hanging out with friends more.
Im getting help for my depression.
Im actually having a goodtime with my friends.

I'll update more later. :) <3

Today. :)

Had the most amazing day with Ryan and my family at the zoo. :)

I lovie you, Ryan Tew.

Summer :)

Besides a few fights here and there with my bestfriend, ive been having a good summer.
Been seein my love more often. :) <3
Hes coming with us to the zoo this weekend.
Er well thats if his mama lets him.

My 17th birthday will be coming up soon to. <3
As well as Ryans 16th. His is on the 12th of July mines of the 20th. :P
<333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

Fall Apart

So, This week..even though its the first week of summer..hasent been much fun.
Reason of the untold..but..just take my word.
Sometimes..I wish i could go back in time.
Fix the stuff i fucked up with.
But i cant.

Thats life..mistakes..regrets..sadness.
It all comes with life.
and i cant change that..
My life will soon fall apart..

Summer love.

So the last day of school for me is this tuesday. My boyfriend and bestfriend doesnt get off till like friday, ima be so bored while theyre in school.

But im so glad school is ending, so ready for a break. Plus we have a longer summer since theyre distroying the school to make a parking lot. Dont worry...they built another school. lol
We have like 4 months of break. :D
Sooooo happy. xD
but next year i only have like a month off.

Im not excited for next summer..since my boyfriend is moving..ugh.
Im gonna miss him sooo freaking much!
Ima go crazy without him.

Well besides summer a near, nothing much has happened.

Wishing

I wish everything could be alright.

Amazing.

Had the most AMAZING time with me Babeh today. :)
I Love you so much Ryan Tew. <3

You complete me.

Undead Heart - Vampire Everywhere!

Oh the kiss scene. Swept me off my feet. <33

Love

God, I love Ryan Tew. :)
That is all. <3

Sick

Came home early from school today.
I remember when i first made this blog, it was one of the days i stayed home with the flu.

Now, warm tea, hot bath, love songs and sleep.
I feel better already.

Honestly.

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say, hey

Nobody gonna love me better
I'mma stickwitu forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'mma stickwitu

You know how to appreciate me
I'mma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'mma stickwitu

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride in our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between

I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say

Nobody gonna love me better
I'mma stickwitu forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'mma stickwitu

You know how to appreciate me
I'mma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'mma stickwitu

And now
Ain't nothing else I could need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me

I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down

I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down

I know you and you know me
And that's, that's why I say, hey

Nobody gonna love me better
I'mma stickwitu forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'mma stickwitu

You know how to appreciate me
I'mma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'mma stickwitu

Nobody gonna love me better
I'mma stickwitu forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'mma stickwitu

You know how to appreciate me
I'mma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'mma stickwitu

Mmm tasty.

Boy, can i come to your candy shop?
Oh baby.

What it do babyboo?

Ryan, Happiness.

I have found happiness in darkness.
Ryan Tew, you are simply..amazing!
Never ever leave me! You make me soo happy i can jump for joy.
Im so happy you came into my life!
Gosh, i could go on forever about you!
But i just cant express in words about how much i love you. <33

The beats..to your heart.

Im lost in a world...i dont understand.

The beats to your heart are numbered

We are here for a moment, and it’s all over in the blink of an eye. 
The future is nonexistent, the past is gone forever, and the only thing that’s real, is the present. we do not last forever, but the purpose of this time is to create something that will.

What can i say?

What can I say, What can I do?
This is who I am and I am hurting you