Happiness.

Still feelin that happiness from yesterday. :)
Thank you Gabby, Ryan and Tyler for making my day yesterday.

Though i wish i wasnt grounded still.
Im gonna try my hardest not to get in trouble so i can see them all next weekend.

BUT my moms being rude and says i cant go to Gabbys only she can come over here till Ryan meets my parents or something like that.

Honestly. Id LIKE TO GO SOMEWHERE ELSE AND NOT STAY IN THIS HOUSE, ive been locked up for forever. Why would i wanna spend my weekend here?!

Seriously.

My love

So today was really good. :)
I didnt expect to get to see him or my bestfriend today, but i did.

That kid right thurr has made me super happy.
I love you Ryan Tew. <3

Right now, slowly..

I wish i wasnt alone right now..I wanna see my friends. I wanna go outside..but i wanna keep talking to Ryan<3 I need my phone. : /

I wanna hang with Gabby and her dad putput golfing..I wanna be with people..I wanna do something..im gonna die in this house.

Im gonna slowly die.

Unexplained

this is where heaven and hell collide

Ghost

Funny when you find a temporary way to fill a void so you can feel complete for a moment, but when the filler fades away it takes even more of you with it, and there you are, emptier than you were to begin with. 

Its true, one moment youre so full of life, then next..youre dead. Empty. Gone. Lifeless.
Like nothing can make you happy..

Its a sad realization..

But I am higher. I will find my place in this world. And i will make the best of life.
Even in the dark areas of life..there must be some gray. Its not just black and white anymore, not for me. There will be gray. and in that gray, i will find complete happiness.

My happines..my happiness to own. Completely mine.

My gray in happiness..Gabby and Ryan
My sisters, Julia..all my friends.

You are my gray.

Never look back

Im sick of this..
Im always being yelled at..
I wanna go far away right now...and never look back.

So..this week.

I know, I havent been on in awhile. I kept forgetting..but im gonna try to get on everyday.

Well today is 4/7/2011, and on the 5th..guess what!? no guesses? ohkay ill tell you anyway, I started dating a very special dood. xD

His names Ryan. :3 Oh and also got suspended that day, haha what a wonderful week aint it. I got into a fight with my mom, some chick at school and mr hinkle got me suspended I also got my phone taken away. Everyone just hates me this week. haha

So ive got a big summer comming up, ive got warped tour, Vampires Everywhere! is coming to town, im going to sixflags with my number one girl Gabby, i might be going out of state..twice! Maybe 3 times if i visit my family out of state, and im taking belly dancing classes this summer. Theres more..but at the moment..i cant think of anymore. xD

Should be a very fun summer! :) Maybe the best?

Ill try to write errday! <3